A glimpse into my weekend!

So my weekend (or so  the days of the week told me), was... well... not really all that exciting. I stayed home and played with the kids. Mr D went and played laser tag on saturday (he acts like a big kid sometimes :P )
The good news is that Miss A is now counting to ten unaided and Miss K is sleeping through the night now! :D

So there isnt all that much to update on really.
I thought that id let you in on a few of the aspirations i had when i was younger... I found that ive done most of them...

• I wanted to have a family....Done
• I wanted to travel to other parts of my country..... Done
• I wanted to fall in love....Done
• I wanted to hold a successful full time job... Done
• I wanted to have close friends that had my back no matter what... Done
• Iwanted to get a qualification... Doing
• I dreamt of being a clean, organised, happy person...Done-ish
• I wanted to make my mum proud... Hopefully doing!

I stopped making new years resolutions about 3 years ago after my heart got broken... I will probably refer back to this as "the incident"so i should probably fill you in on what happened...

The Incident...

I was living in Darwin with my boyfriend at the time (we'll call him f***tard). I did some temp work at an office in the industrial district thanks to my sister landing me the job. I worked 5 days a week and as a smoker i'd occasionally go outside around the side of the office for a quick smoke.. After a few weeks of working there, i met a guy that worked next door to where i did. 

(just to add a bit of back story, f***trd worked in the merchant navy month on month off so he was at work alot, i'd found his phone bill so i could pay it and found that he'd been cheating on me with a chick in melbourne. So i was saving to break up with him.)

The guys name was Mr M... It was lust at first sight... We talked non stop every day then decided to catch up for a beer after work one day... I called f***tard later that day to tell him i was looking at moving out. Mr M and i hit it off amazingly, he was perfect... 

3 weeks after we started seeing each other i found out i was pregnant... Mr M's mates played a cruel joke on me and didnt inform me that Mr M was staying out at the property he had just bought, and not at the flat.. I spent 2 and a half weeks trying to get in contact with Mr M, (his phone had gotten smashed while we were at the drag races a few weeks beforehand) So after those two long (wet) weeks were up and it looked like he was avoiding me, i booked a flight back to NSW where all my friends and family were...

In the following months, Mr D and i got together and we started raising Miss A as our own...

When Miss A was 4 months old, i recieved a txt msg from Mr M.. ASking how i was and why i ran away..

So the whole story came out and Mr M asked for me to come up so he could meet his daughter. I did. 

Miss A and i went on a plane and stayed up there for a week.  I am a bad person for what happened next. I fell back in love with Mr M.

After the week was up i flew home to tell Mr D that i needed to clear my head and have some space as i didnt think it was fair i loved two people at the same time.
I flew back up to Darwin in the next month..
Mr M was always a joker and so i tried to get my own back.. He knew i was coming back and he was so excited!I wouldnt tell him when my flight got in, just the week it would happen. I wish id told him.
Miss A and i arrived at Darwin Airport and was greeted by his two best mates Anne and Gene. Anne took Miss A off my hands and led me towards a room. It was a 2 minute walk. Gene was trying not to cry. Anne was walking behind us..

There's been an accident jess... He's gone.
We got into the room where i was faced by Mr M's boss, best mates, and the airport security. and a policeman.
It was real.
Mr M was dead.
The day before i flew in.
I had nothing.
My sister was called.
I dont remember much after that.


I stayed in Darwin for a week organising Mr M's funeral.
I left.
I got a tattoo.
I havent been back since.

So that is "The Incident" I still think of Mr M daily and wonder what happened. Mr D helped me greive, helped with Miss A and was the most supportive person ive ever met.
I wont go into details about cause of death but i will say that it was accidental. Not murder or suicide. Just a stupid accident.

"when i dont say your name, dont think ive forgotten you... Im just thinking about you in my head and heart
Cos I can

In the true blogging way...

I am now more interested in other peoples lives than my own! My life is in no way glamorous or exciting so i tend to live vicariously through others! there are 4 blogs i read religiously and they have become my source of laughter, tears and sometimes frustrations.
My friends have started to read my blog and they have all said the same thing... Are you really THAT bored?
The answer being.. not bored so much, but  it is a more interesting way of passing the time than say... watching kids shows. They tend to insult my intelligence! (not to say im not glad for them, they're a great source of distraction for Miss A!) 
I have had mixed reviews from my friends about my blog, some say that im too honest, some say that its great and the others? well to be honest I dont really care! :P

This morning I happened onto a beautiful sight... Miss A has taken a shining to Miss K over the past few days, more so than before. Now when I put Miss K on the lounge, Miss A just HAS to sit next to her ( if she doesnt get her way, tantrums are the result)

Miss A generously shared her baby doll with Miss K and was trying to teach her to 'booby feed bubba'

I was moved that she was sharing, not fighting with her for once!

I am having a honesty week, in which i cannot exaggerate, lie, or do ANYTHING dishonest! (I dont really usually apart from the odd exaggeration!)So if you interested in asking anything, go for it... I have also started this on facebook... stay tuned for some gory Q&A's!

 

 'Most people arent stupid, they just make stupid decisions'

Cos I can!

My mind works in strange ways...

(Well hey, at least it still works!)

So I have accomplished alot today... Ive worked out that

• sitting on the lounge watching Dr Phil does NOT actually accomplish anything.
• Looking at the washing up DOESNT actually get it done.
• Swearing at my bathroom does... NOT inspire it to scrub itself, AND
• with all the motivation in the world, NOTHING, I repeat... nothing can prepare me for 2 simultaniously pooping kids!

But time for the good stuff... I have found another photo on my computer (its an oldie) that made me giggle lots...

I have taught my 2 year old daughter how to vacuum. this photo was taken at 6 in the morning when i decided it was time to vacuum... She decided it was 'mine turn mummy' LOL.

Another day another blog!

So here I sit again, Miss A is calmly sitting watching cartoons eating breakfast and Miss K is in her swing watching me at the computer.
I had a fairly eventful  interesting weekend, I had visitors and I had Sunday by myself with the kids. Now dont get me worng, I love Mr D but sometimes his ignorance shits me annoys the hell out of me! He has been out every weekend for a while now, if not the weekend, through the week. I love my children but sometimes adult conversation would be nice. :-)
On Sunday he attended a christening of an old friends' two kids. Thats cool, I am happy he went, but as far as I knew, he was coming straight home afterwards... It is a 3 and a half hour trip. He did not tell me otherwise. After txting him at 4pm to see what his plans were, he then decided to tell me that he'd had a few beers so he had to wait an hour to drive... He didnt get home in time to see Miss A go to bed and had left at 5am so hadnt seen her all day. It upset me a little..
on sunday I also had an ex friend come to collect her things that she had left here whilst staying here a few weeks ago. After walking straight into my house, she didnt know or say hi, just gave both the kids a hug and dtarted telling me how much she'd been drinking lately. It irritates me, she is on a weight loss drug that is speed based and is still drinking on it. She then gets sick and fishes for sympathy... People like that annoy me...

Anyways, i have a new pic to put up on things that make me smile... It was a hard choice today so if it gets the best of me, ill post the other up after lunch! :-P

Miss A and Mr D watching the footy! Quality bonding time :-P

In a million years, I could never find another like you... And id never want to.

Cos I can!

I went a bit overboard...

I was unable to sleep the other night so i thought id show you what i do when my mind is going on overdrive...

(Both Mr D and i read alot if you cant tell!)

I have had an idea that ever day (or at least every second day, i will post up a photo of something i find entertaining. They wont be artworks, just something thats made me smile!

 

What we find in boxes...

So ive lived here since October last year.. Since i was heavily pregnant i didnt get around to unpacking all the boxes, they got moved into our spare room and forgotten about
(out of sight out of mind!)
This morning I went in to go through a box, (one box a day, then they'll all go away!) and found my entire make-up collection from about 2 years ago. Wow we keep some crap!
For the point of curiosity only, i decided to go through another box... I found things from my past I had competely forgotten about.
* Photo Albums
* Old Diaries
* Old clothes
* Stuff from Miss A's baby days
* Mr D's old school stuff
*Mr D's swimming awards
* My old phone book

I got a little distracted by these things of course and the day got away from me, im going to make another attempt today and see what other treasures i can uncover in the depths of my old suitcases!

 My question is, had anyone else made a great discovery? If so, what was it and where?

Memory is a way of holding on to the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose.
Cos I can!

the joys of kidlets!

My days are fairly monotonous, wake up, feed kids, bath kids, play with kids, discover new talents the kids have, feed kids again, play outside, bath kids again and bedtime...
The time after they go to bed is no longer 'me'time, It has become the ideal time for me to do uninterrupted house work (yay me my life is soooo cool!)
I started to wonder on how i can limit my time spent on house work and still get the same results...
Result =
NADA...
Ba hahaha ive tried leaving washing till theres 2 loads but i tend to forget they are in the machine if im not out there, Ive tried doing my washing up as i go (I still do, just because im a bit of a clean nazi) but the same thing always happens... 5 minutes after i clean the house, its like Miss A turns into her cyclone mode on cue and destroys all my good work!
I have my grandmother coming to visit on tuesday so im trying to keep the house as tidy as possible to reduce insults when she comes...
I dont know if all grandparents are the same as i only have the one im in contact with...
Evertytime she calls to say she is going to visit, i freak and turn into an even worse clean nazi.. Poor Mr D has to put up with not really seeing me unless im walking past him to do washing or vacuuming etc. This week ive decided enough is enough.
My house is not dirty, just (as i like to call it) 'lived in' there are toys on the floor, and the occasional colouring in book and crayons left here and there (For some reason Miss A thinks its appropriate to colour in in our sun room, our bedroom, or even the kitchen) But my house is never messy and im tired of getting stressed out  just because my nanna is coming...
But in saying that, we have only just started tlking again as when Miss K was 3 days old my nanna visited to meet her and upon entry to my house told me i would never be a good mother as i cant keep my house clean... Now excuse me for letting the house work go for 4-5 days... I HAD ONLY JUST GIVEN BIRTH!
Mr D had been great tidying things when hew could, but the way we saw it, it was a little more important that we had energy to look after our kids. So instead of cleaning for the first few days, we slept instead... Apparently thats bad parenting...
So lets see how Tuesday turns out...
(Im kind of tempted to let Miss A do the cyclone thing on monday night just to stir the pot a little...)

Ah family! gotta love em!

In turn, we shall all have peace, even if it is only for 10 minutes at a time!
Cos I can!